All over the place.

It's the worst feeling in the world when you have a million feelings running through your mind in a single moment. Where you feel like you want to be happy, delightful,jumping for joy, angry, down, depressed, or just simply unhappy. When you think about everyone else's problems and feel like it's your own responsibility. Like you need to fix everyone's problems. When you see a child cry , you want to take their tears and  cry for them.

When you have soo much responsibilities and you feel like if anyone sees how you really feel like your world is going to coming crushing down around you. All you want is a shoulder to cry on and to know they will not take advantage of your vulnerability. To always know they will always be there for you know matter what. Some one to help with the responsibility and help a little. To respect you for who you are.

Yes, I'm all over the place. My feelings, my sense of responsibility. All of how I feel. Everything. But all I can do for now is to put my head up and hope for the best. And to pray that god gives me the courage I need. Peace until next time, XO.

No Guarantees!

Life has no guarantees! You can't guarantee how your lifes going to turn out. Nor who is going to be apart of it. You can't even guarantee whats going to happen in the next few hours. So how do you predict your future? How can you guarantee not getting hurt by the people you most trust? That's a question that is constantly on my mind.

I'm a person that opens my heart easily to the people around me. How can I guarantee not to be hurt? If it's a close friend or a family member or even a spouse that has disappointed me and made me doubt them. What or who is going to help me move on or learn from my mistakes? What's going to give me the courage to move on and forgive? or even trust again?

How will I lose the feeling of rejection? Of not being good enough.

So many people were there for me when I needed them the most at any time in my life and I want them to know that even if life drags us apart for whatever reason I will always be there know matter what. And hopefully they will realize that.

But, always keep in mind there are no guarantees, keep your heart safe, but also give people the opportunity to be themselves and live up to what you believe. There is a chance your going to get hurt but there is an even bigger chance that your not. Peace for now, XO till next time.