Confused

I haven't posted anything in a while. I guess I've been overwhelmed with my engagement to the most wonderful, loving, caring man in the world.
So in the past three months, I got engaged, and I quit my job. Don't get me wrong I kind of regret quitting. But in the end I just got so tired of working morning shift one day and night shift the next. As a pharmacist , I know that the two shifts comes with the profession, whether you're working in a pharmacy or hospital. Anyways, ever since I left, I've been looking for anything but focusing on finding a job that has a constant shift. And my loving fiancé, who has a few connections in the medical business, has been helping me. He is just so amazing! I'm getting offers for amazing jobs , BUT, they all need me to work two different shifts. And I'm confused! I don't know what to do. I left the previous job for this reason, why would I take this job? I just don't know what to do anymore. Help me? Give me your advice?

Till next time, XO.

Unexpected

Its funny how life can be so unexpected. How you can be imagining a certain life for yourself. Certain goals and dreams. And than instantly your life changes 100%. Nothing of what you imagined. But what is even more surprising? You have never been happier in your life.

That's exactly what happened to me. I had certain goals and dreams that I wanted to come true. Things I wanted to face on my own! Now? Now, I don't want to do a single thing if that person isn't there by my side to do them with me! 

Who is this guy? That's my secret! But inshalla he will be the one I share all the ups and downs of life with!

Peace till next time, XOXO.

On The Outside

It's hard to see a friend and a loved one going through something and not knowing how to help them. The thing that no one realizes is that we've all been there. We have all been through a problem and feel like our world is going to come crushing down around us. How we feel like we are all alone in this world and no one notices us. Durning those times we are blind to the world. We don't see loved ones trying to help us. 

I recently realized this as one of my friends has been going through something. I look at her and my heart breaks. As much as I want to try and help her, I don't know what to say. I don't know how. 

You feel yourself on the outside of something big, but you have no solutions. 

I always try and help people, even those that I barely know. Its hard to gain someone's trust, and to let them open up to you. But the least you could do is to keep reminding them that you're there for them, and hope they will eventually come and open up , so you can help them move on. 

So, help people out you never know when you will need someone to be there for you. Peace, XOXO

New Year.

Well, Happy New Year!! Ive been wanting to write since yesterday, but I haven't had any time on my hands. I just got home from work. But I've had a few thoughts in my mind the past week or so. First of all, I can't wrap my head around the fact that 2013 is finally over. I don't know if I want to ask what your new year's resolutions are, because I feel like its mumbo jumbo. Every year we make a list of things we want to achieve in the next year of our lives. But 99% of us don't do a single thing on that list. 

For me, 2013 was unexpected. I never thought I would finally graduate from university,and I didn't have any plans on finding a job so soon. And most of all I didn't dream of finding such beautiful souls, that would effect me in such a profound way. Without knowing it, I feel like 2013 made me grow as a person more than I ever thought I could. And I have all the new people I've met to be grateful for that.

But, now that 2013 has come to an end, I have to think about what I want for 2014. How can I truly grow as an intellectual human. How can 2014 be the turning point to the kind of life I truly want for myself. These few things cant be figured out yet! Its still the second day of the year. Let the next 365 days be the beginning of a new book. But like any book each page has to be written before the book can end. So I'm going to take each day as it comes and figure out what I want to do. 

So take 2014 one day at a time, grow as humans, and improve who you are without judging others, and most importantly, take risks! You never know what you can accomplish!

Until next time, Peace XO.

Love yourself.

" If you want to change the way others treat you, you should first change the way you treat yourself. Unless you learn to love yourself, fully and sincerely, there is no way you can be loved. Once you achieve that stage, however, be thankful for every thorn that others might throw at you. It is a sign that you will soon be showered in roses." -The Forty Rules of Love By: Elif Shafak

For the past week or so I've been reading a book. Now the book is about two stories that are intertwined together. It talks about a present day story and a thirteenth century story. I dont want to go into details about the book itself but the rules that are mentioned always get me thinking. This one rule (quoted above) got me thinking about life and love. Love doesn't have to mean romantic love, it can mean family love, or friendship love. It got me thinking about the way some people  treat me. A lot of people understand me wrong. I realized that I care about other people's problems and feelings more than I think about myself. I truely know now that I'm more important than others. But  what little people know that I worry about others unconsciously. People that I truly care about I worry about them. And I try with all my heart to ask about them. As much as I want people to love me, and constantly ask about me. I need to love myself. Only when I truly love myself will people love me. Know matter how hard people throw stones at me and try to tear me down, they don't realize that their hurt makes me stronger! I pull myself up higher every time! As long as I have me, I'll be ok! I'm not saying that I don't want to be loved. Cause everyone wants to be loved, but until I find the person that will take my pain off my shoulders, and helps me forget about others problems , all I have is me! Well peace until next time, love you all XO.

Snoww !!!!!!!!!

I've been wanting to post the past few days. But every day I go home extremely tired cold and exhausted from work and this amazing weather! I'm a big fan of winter! It's my favorite season of the year! This morning I woke up and the doorway was blocked!!! All I could think about was how was I going to get to work!!

After seeing the snow and thinking about work, I started thinking about all the people in this world, and how they would be dealing with this kind of weather. I was reminded by the people that dont have shelter or a roof over their head. The people that were thrown from their homes. The little kids that were found buried under the snow. And I found tears running down my face. Allah tries to tell people that he is capable of everything. But we dont even try and thank him for what we have. We complain from this weather and how we don't want to go to work because it's to cold. When we don't even realize that people are living in the cold while we are warm! I pray that god gives people what he has given me. That he keeps the Muslims and all the people in the world warm and safe at times like these! Stay warm and be safe! Peace till next time, XO!

A few pictures of the day...my favorites!

It's been a while!

I've been so busy with work recently that I barely noticed I haven't written anything in so long! And I noticed that I've been working for three months now! It's unbelievable how fast time flies by!
I really don't have anything on mind, except that I'm exhausted! But I'm planning on posting soon. Really soon I hope.
I hope everyone is good. Love you all peace till next time XOXO.